| honest thought |
[01 Jun 2006|10:06pm] |
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i don't know what to say about the current situation i am in right now. i must admit i do feel pressured a lot of times. mostly by people i know and my parents. it is my honest feeling that i want people to just disappear sometimes. everytime i am in a classroom, i want the time to stop and be the only one able to move and think. I want to be the only one who knows what the world is. i sometimes hope people would become dumb and simple like they used to be back in the days when fire was first discovered. i wish the people would become so stupid and their brains would shrink to the point that they wouldn't even think about using technology to screw up the world climate or the ozone layer. i wish skyscrapers would burn down as well as all the other buildings existing. it is my original theory that people should not get involved in anything too much. what i mean is don't get so caught up in the moment that you couldn't even breathe anymore. be free from attachment and other kinds. don't think about the others more than about yourself. why worry about what people think about when all you need to live are food, water, and air. why become so attached to somebody to the point that you want them all to yourself and turn them into a bird in a cage. and what people don't realize is by doing that, you are turning yourself into a hamster in a cage. subconsciousness is a sin.
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| somebody special |
[22 May 2006|09:12pm] |
i want to find a boy who would:
give me hugs
have fun with me
listen to me
notice me when i'm standing in the corner
like me
accept me by who i am
listen to jack johnson with me
go to art shows with me
burn things with me
lay in the grass with me
do stupid stuff with me
try to understand me
who wouldn't:
be clingy
try to dominate my life
act like listening to me but not
hurt me
try to be too romantic
think i'm dumb
lie to me
take me for granted
be too serious
i am such a wuss.
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| never coming back |
[11 May 2006|08:42pm] |
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so my life is going downhill right now. i can't believe i got so emotional about everything that has been happening these days. i promised myself i wouldn't be. i knew that it wasn't going to work out. i worry about so much stuff these days, its not even funny. i just want to graduate and leave.
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| addiction |
[10 May 2006|06:19pm] |
current addiction: blonde redhead, iced chai, cigarettes.
i actually want to stop smoking, because its going to kill me.
but then sooner or later, i'm going to die anyways.
we all end up in the same way.
it's just that you get to make the choice of how to live.
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| hated because of great qualities |
[10 May 2006|06:14pm] |
secret so sorry that i forgot
secret secret we're all bound to forget.
i was worried i might be rude to you.
so worried that i was.
it's a lie to serve the truth
and i'm still guilty.
i missed. so be it.
everywhere everything you ever touched.
cutting in won't do it. there's nothing to it.
you were sorry that i was alone
so sorry that you run away.
putting it on me but you already knew it.
it never meant a thing.
so be it.
i can't understand this at all.
i can't pronounce this at all.
these are different matters
these are uncertain feelings
they should never be discussed here
so keep it to yourself
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| In Particular |
[01 May 2006|10:59pm] |
Lying on my back. I heard music.
Felt unsure & catastrophic. Had to tell myself it's only music.
It blows my mind, but it's like that.
Is anyone there? What could you tell me?
Afraid of what? Would you ever know?
Everyone else is really boring.
Anyone else wouldn't be good enough.
Some place safe I would imagine.
Someone new would be so cruel.
Incurable paranoiac. Hysterical depression.
Alex I'm your only friend.
Alex your love will sing for you
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| yes, terday |
[30 Apr 2006|12:23pm] |
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music |
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Sufjan Stevens- "For the Window in the Paradise" |
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so yesterday, stephanie, anita, T-dog (Tanya), and i went to swellegant to look for me and stephanie's prom dress. we met up with annum, vicky, and maryam later at the store. i got sunglasses and a purse which apparantly looks really asian. i was unsuccessful in finding my prom dress, which is just great. but then i don't have a date yet so..uhhh....ya. plus, prom is in june so i don't have to worry about it, YET.
steph, maryam, and myself
T-dawg and I
this morning, i woke up and i felt sentimental.
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[17 Apr 2006|09:21pm] |
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frustration
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| all i need |
[13 Apr 2006|08:06pm] |
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she understands me. she listens to me. she never gets disappointed of me. she never lets me down. she always makes me feel happy when i'm sad. she turns my frown into a grin. she knows how i feel. she always supports me. even if the world turns against me, as long as i have her, i'm alright. she is all i need.
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| dream |
[06 Apr 2006|09:47pm] |
i had a dream that i went to a david bowie concert. i was watching him sing and then he came over to me and sat next to me. we were talking. and talking. and talking.
best dream i've ever had.
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| the yellow submarine |
[02 Apr 2006|10:33pm] |
it was raining outside
somebody was playing the guitar
it was a beautiful song
soft sad and quiet
and it was hazy inside
and you could distinctly see the silhouettes
it was dark outside
it was like the world drowned in the rain
and we were the only ones existing
i could hear the rain tapping the glass
i was in the yellow submarine
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| today |
[30 Mar 2006|08:34pm] |
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today's fieldtrip to laguna beach/OC museum was pretty much lame. we didn't have enough time to go anywhere. but then it was a really nice day outside. i wish i lived there. the houses, the beach, the environment, its just almost perfect. i belong in laguna beach. yeah.
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| i made a pancake! |
[26 Mar 2006|01:18pm] |
plain
mmmm
MMMMM
i added some friends to this whipcream land/strawberry mountain.
the snowman shot the bear down. it had rabies.
nice work.
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| sick |
[18 Mar 2006|04:39pm] |
pretty much, im really sick.
so i'm going to stay home and rest in peace.
and listen to The Beatles.
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| the song of your life |
[17 Mar 2006|09:38pm] |
this is the dawning of the age of aquarius
aquarius.
aquarius.
aquarius.
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| me myself & i |
[17 Mar 2006|08:27pm] |
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my name is yuki. yuki is my name.
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